Do you ever feel as though your brain is heavy?
Like it could just knock your whole head off and make you unsteady.
Do you ever hear the cry of the Wolf deep wither your ear canal?
Howling the the breeze of the unsteady heavy brain.
Do you ever drift off mid conversation?
Oi, Oi! Are you listening to what I’m saying?
Lights on no one home, heavy brain wolf in your ear.
Have you ever felt the depths of depression
In so deep you can’t cope with the pressure
Dark days even darker nights
Cloudy mind heavy brain
Just wanna dance in the rain
To no prevail you try to get up
Even if it’s for just one cup.
For me I take a moment in time
Not the type to wine and dine
My soul is to heal from its own inner hell
A world of turmoil sunk deep in a spell
Tortured and abused my body weeps
A temple they say… I need a beach
Oceans of salt wash away the hate
Self love self care walked out the gate.
Filling my mind with various poisons
Only to wake back in a state
To heavy to breath
To unsteady to stand I go bury my head deep in the sand
Sex, drugs, dancing on tables
No wonder I felt so unstable.
Serotonin so depleted from years of addiction
Where on earth do I start to fix it?
Stop drinking stop smoking put down that pill
Easy to say goes against my will
Smokey haze drunken summer days
Addicted minds come out to play
Why would I want it any other way
Has been my life to this very day
Try to stop the doc will say
Mind takes over the bottle stays
Take this pill it will make you sick
Even if you have just one sip
Purple haze brains seen better days
Now it is time to clean out the closet
Change my ways of sinking to the bottom
Whoops once again the bottle is empty
Why on earth can’t I stop this cycle so tempting
Self medicating the years away
Not knowing to this very day
Drunken stupor why was I so stupid
How did I not see I was battling PTSD.
Years of torment inflicted on oneself
Blowing my brain to pieces
Now it is time to recreate the jigsaw
Begin a new life it is official
Have u ever heard your own inner battle
Loud n clear in your own head
Be free of thought, mindless unwind
Do u ever hear voices inside?
I’m telling you now with time and trust you can quiet your mind….
