Procrastinating is terrible I admit, but I’m going to make excuses. My head has been all over the place and I’ve been stressed out. No good having a stressed out Phlossie. Not fun.
Right now I’m feeling a heap more positive and have totally got the shakes from the "expresso/hot chocolate" I had this monring on an empty stomach. ooops. Too strong.
I’m organising a troupe to perfom at God’s Kitchen. It has been the biggest Headache ever. I went after the job TOTALLY not expecting what I was going to get into. I’m not going into details. However its simple enough to say I’m not doing another big even unless I can EITHER have full control of the costume design OR I see eye to eye with what the client wants. Haha Ah well one more day till D day. I’m expecting the event to be a pile of fun still, but the prep was a little frazzling. I asked for it tho.
The Nz Music awards are next week too and on a WEDNESDAY! Who the hell puts a big industry party and after booze up on a midweek day. Yea some of us are professional entertainers/ musicians… but some of us have day jobs and a life to maintain!! Eeeek. Thursday might just be hangover day for me.
I’d take a leave day off, but I’m saving up my holidays HAHA!
Anyway. I finally got a $50 westfielf voucher for work. Its a monthly "R&R" thingy which I basically I think is bullshit but $50 is still $50. Which in my language = a new manicure/ nails and possibly a massage. I’m in terrible need of one. I’m always damn well giving them out to other people and currently I have a MASSIVE one in my right shoulder. Figures since I over use my mouse, and sleep on my side.
*laughs at my self* my fingers have still got the caffeene shakes.
I want be self sufficient and self supporting. I hate being an employee, but I see it as a means to an end till I become my own boss. I’m going to work my ass off till I get there tho.
Anyway I’m going to make a big announcement next week too! I’m SUPER excited about it and I don’t want to loose the momentum I’ve got in my head. An idea shared is one step closer to making it happen. I’ll be contacting performers, photographers, businesses and Clubs soon.
A chocolate fish if you guess what its all about! haha
I have a dream – its a dream that doesn’t go away.
I want to have my own princess castle. I want to have the time to be "MYSELF" everyday not just on the weekends. I want to stop "toning it down" for work or other people. I want to have a million things going on at once so I forget to eat. I want to own a pink vintage Vespa scooter. I want to legally change my name. I want to not sleep for three days. I want live it like a Rock Star. I want to make a glamorous life a reality. I want to get lazer hair removal. I want to move to Melbourne, Aust. I want to be admitted to Rehab, just so I can know what its like. I want to have an army of pink hatted GNOMES in my garden. I want to live in an inner city appartment. I want to be happy and poor before I get happy and rich. I want to educate myself. I want to live like a hippie. I want to be single again. I want to do every crazy thing out there. I want to streak accross a rugby field. I want to walk on a high fashion runway. I want to get more tattoo’s. I want to get pink and black extensions. I want to live in the states for a year. I want to grow old not regretting anything. I want to do something so rediculously scandalous that it makes the front page of the national news paper. I want a bed that looks like a marshmellow. I want to take as many people with me on my crazy journey as possible.
Am I mad? Or is it just the voices in my head?